When I was as a little girl, at the age of three, I was the victim of a
near-death accident that involved hot water and a basin. That’s right. I had been in the bathroom with mom,
who was busy doing some laundry. I pretended to be helping out, but truth be told
I was simply enjoying the thrill of getting my hands wet, as most kids do. After a while I decided to
go out to the living room to find my dad. Now you need to understand that my
dad and I have a very special bond- I am daddy’s girl! So
anyway, when I opened the door to exit the bathroom, I did not realize that our house help had placed a basin full of hot water right outside the door. I
believe she wanted to prepare a bath for one of us, and had probably gone back
to get some cold water to cool it a little. I’m certain that you’re now thinking that the worst happened? Well
you’re right! I tripped over the basin and fell
right into water that was scalding hot. I thank God that my mind has up until this day blocked away the whole
traumatic experience and even what I am sharing with you is a recount of what
my family shared with me concerning that night.
For three months I was admitted in hospital with third degree burns.
The doctors despaired...there was little hope for me. But God still had a plan
for my life. God saved me from the sting of death, and in spite of what the
doctors feared, I began my slow but steady journey to recovery. Due to the
damage caused on my skin by the burns, the doctors suggested that my family
take me for plastic surgery, but before a decision could be made, the great
physician, Jehovah Rapha, continued to restore me. It got to a point where the
doctors said there probably would be no use for plastic surgery because it
seemed that I was recovering speedily and better than they had expected. I am now
alive with only scars to show that I went through the valley of the shadow of
death.
Growing up I was very conscious of my scars, and what people thought
of them. I worked hard to conceal them and would never expose myself publicly
(for instance during swimming). I felt ugly, and always endeavored to protect
myself from curious stares.
When my relationship with God started to grow, I also came to
understand that when He sees me, He is not distracted by the scars- He sees
beyond them; He sees a woman who is fearfully and wonderfully made in His image
and likeness! I began to really and truly believe that He loves me and my scars
because they are part of who I am. This freed me totally and liberated me from
my fears. And though I’m human and
sometimes feel a little self-conscious, especially when someone stares at my
scars, I remind myself that God, my creator, loves me...scars and all! I also
realized that the more comfortable I became in my own skin, the less of a big
deal my scars were even in other people’s eyes. Some people never even notice until I draw attention to myself
by talking about the burns.
My scars are physical, but there are those that come in other
forms...emotional, psychological ... Some of you reading this have suffered
domestic abuse, rape, others have been crippled by disease and illness, while
yet others are simply what I call victims of life- anything that could possibly
go wrong in your life has gone wrong, and people have written you off. The good
news is that God doesn’t consider you a
cast away, but a vessel of Mercy. You have been through the fire and the rain
and you are still standing. That is no small fit beloved. God preserved you so
that someone else by hearing your story of survival will find a reason to hold
on, in spite of what they have had to face. You are a vessel of honor. And the
scars you bear? Those will bear testimony to the fact that no, the process didn't break you; it made you.
Sometimes we wonder whether God would love us even where we are
flawed, and have gone through ordeals that have left us with scars- the answer is yes, He loves us, scars and all.
And the scars testify of His delivering power. They give a story that’s deeper than any words can express. Embrace
your scars...let them act as reminders of what God has taken you through and
always remember that He loves you...scars and all!
Kambua M.
