It is the innate nature
of things to grow when they are fed, or else they die of starvation. Some
things feed on dirt and scum…while other things find nourishment in pleasant
things...others yet feed on the life of others, but whichever the case, animals,
plants, dreams, ideas- they all must be
fed in order to grow.
Lately, I have been in a
somewhat reflective, pensive space, and after some soul-searching and spending time talking to
God I realized that I was simply feeling worn out by things I have willfully allowed
to be a part of my life. They are like weeds that have grown over time and not
until recently did I notice that they were choking the life out of my dreams,
and suffocating my vision. Some of these proverbial weeds are in the form of
friendships that have run their course, others are in the form of habits I have
picked up along the way in an effort to fit in with people; to have a sense of
belonging.
So I asked God to give me
the courage to start a long-overdue damage control process, and the most
amazing thing about allowing God to do the fixing is that when He’s done with
you all that’s left are traces of His presence and an unmistakable mark of His
glory on your life.
However, this ‘damage
control’, I must admit, has not been easy. Sometimes I have tried to resist,
then relented when I realized I was just postponing the inevitable, while other
times- ouch! It is just too painful, and
I have to stop to catch my breath.
During this season I have asked for wisdom to know when to keep fighting
for things, and when to walk away from them. It takes strength to do both.
I have also asked for the
will power to resist all manner of temptation. God’s word says that he provides
a way of escape whenever we are tempted. Meaning that we have no excuse to fall
in to temptation by way of lying, bribing, fornicating, slandering, or allowing
anything into our lives that breaks the heart of God. I came to the realization
that I cannot truly say I love God when I keep pursuing the things that break
His heart. He has paved a way of escape for each and every one of us
without exception.
Look around you; there is a way of escape. Take it, and don’t look back.
Dear God as you continue
to help me clean up my house, I pray
that you do the same for anyone reading this who feels worn out and
exhausted by things they too have
allowed to take root and bear fruit in their lives. For anyone who feels that they may not survive the loneliness that comes with walking the straight and
narrow road…God I pray that you will give them a new and profound revelation of
who you are, and how you give new strength for each passing day.
Thank you God for being
the lifter of my head. Thank you for being my shield and defense. Thank you for
covering my shame. And for loving me through some of the most devastating
seasons of my life, God I say, thank you. I am making a choice, right now, this day, at this moment,
to honor the dreams you have given me and value the life you have blessed me
with. To define my mission, and to keep running my own race.
As I share my journey
with you beloved, I pray that you will see grace in my ruins, and that you will look past
the mess, and into the beauty that God has traded my life for. As scary as it
may be to let go of things that have defined you, if you trust the process to
God, you will come out victorious.
Everything He has done
for me, He can do for you, and more. Whatever has plagued you, mistakes you’ve
made, terrible choices…everything that has tried to stifle your progress...the power is in your hands. Anything you feed, will
grow, but if you cut off its supply, it will die.
So take a deep breath and
do what I have chosen to do…just pull the plug!
Kambua M.
