A couple of days ago I sat around a bonfire in the middle of
nowhere with a bunch of friends eating some good nyama, listening to great music, having light conversation, and I
realized that I am blessed. Like really, truly, overwhelmingly blessed. You see,
life has been happening so fast and in the pursuit of success it's easy to
lose sight of little blessings that keep coming our way. So as I sat there
laughing at just about everything, fretting a little bit about how my hair
would be smelling of smoke the next day, I admitted to myself that even in the darkest of nights there is a blessing.
Being content does not mean that everything is going as it
should, and it definitely doesn’t mean that you are at the place you want to be. It simply
means that you recognize the value of every moment and know that nothing happens by
chance. I recently shared on my Instagram page: kambuamuziki, that I have been going through a very
frustrating season in my life. It has been tough. Like hair-pulling, nerve-wracking,
cry-me-a-river tough. But through it I have had no doubt in my mind that God
has been with me. He has given me a deep seated peace that I cannot explain. So
when I say, “I am fine”, it's because I know that God’s got me.
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Here’s the thing. As long as you have life in you, you will
be tried and tested, in all sorts of ways. You may lose your job, or your
friends. You may go through a divorce, or have to deal with grief. You may go
bankrupt or get evicted. As long as you are here…you will go through hell and
high waters. You will go through deep valleys, climb treacherous mountains, rough terrain, and very narrow paths.
But you will never go through it
alone. God made you that promise, and His Word which is His bond, is inerrant and
infallible. Remember the three Hebrew boys thrown in a fiery furnace? The
fourth man was there with them. Or Daniel in the den of lions? God was with
Him. How about Peter walking on water and having a moment of weakness…if only...if only he had known that as long as Jesus was with him, no way was he going to drown.
He walks with you beloved. Stop worrying about things that
you cannot change and trust that God is doing a new thing. A little over two years ago I felt as though I
had hit an iceberg and was surely going to drown. When I lost my father I experienced a numbness I had never known before- my world was engulfed in darkness that lurked over me with no hope of illumination. I went through the motions of ‘moving on’ as I was
expected to, but I could not, for the life of me, climb out of that dark hole. My days were curdled
in lethargy and I constantly felt flaccid and afraid.
But a few months ago I looked back and realized that the
numbness had slowly ebbed away, and even though it still hurts to think of a
future without the man I called dad, I don’t feel like I am drowning anymore.
It has taken the hand of God to slowly but surely get my feet back on solid
ground. So, if God carried me through that, how about this season- won’t he do
it!
What I’m trying to say is, cliché as it may sound, no situation is permanent. Do not
despair, whatever it is, your story is your truth, your testimony. And God is your strength. Be
brave. Go through it so that someone else might find the courage to fight
through their own battle. Stay hopeful. Seasons change. Keep your tent pitched
in the land of hope. I have set mine up right next to yours as I wait for my
breakthrough.
Go through it, will you?
From my heart to yours,
Kambua M.
