My rhythm, my song...

Have you ever been on a bus and sat next to someone with headphones on? The music blares in their ears and they seem to be unaware of everything and everyone around them. It becomes even more apparent when they begin to hum or sing along to whatever is playing in their ears. I’ve met a few exceptional people who manage to stay on key, but the vast majority are usually blissfully unaware of how flat or sharp they sound, and listening to them can be quite hilarious! Well, my husband often happens to be on the receiving end of my not-so-good singing when I have my ear phones on, but at that moment, I have not a care in the world. I lose myself in the music, and let it take me away! It is such an amazing feeling.

As I think about my journey, I can’t tell you how many times I have fallen victim of being distracted by people; either by their words or even their achievements. I  have sometimes been so overwhelmed when I look around and see people realize their dreams, one by one. Those are the times I wrack my brain, wondering  why day in and day out I pour my heart  into things and the results remain slow in coming.

People have often looked at me and not understood why I do what I do, they way I do it. With only the best of intentions they have tried to offer me alternative formulas on how I should build my career and my life in general.  But you see, God has given each one of as a vision that is so unique one from the other. There are times in pursuit of our dreams that no one will understand what we are after; it may seem so far-fetched, or look like you’re chasing after the wind, but just because people cannot see what you are working towards, just because they do not understand your vision, does not mean that God did not give it to you; and if He did, this one thing I know for sure: He watches over His Word to perform it.

I may still be a long ways from becoming all I want to be, but I have faith. Faith that is sometimes so small, but very powerful nonetheless, and it keeps pushing me forward even in the face of disbelief and antagonism. Therefore I am choosing to put my headphones on, and shut the noise out. I am making a conscious decision to pay attention to my vision, my dreams and my call, knowing that as I do so, God will help me define my mission and give me grace to keep running the race. I will keep on dancing to my own beat- the one that God designed me for. I choose to embrace my path and be grateful for being here at this moment in time. I would have hoped to be further by now, but I see traces of God’s faithfulness all around me.

In the big and small breaks I am reminded that big doors swing on little hinges. I cherish my starting place and honor the humble, very tedious beginnings. I am eternally grateful even for lessons learned albeit through lots of pain and struggle. I know beyond any shadow of doubt that He who began a good work in me will make it all worthwhile.

Finding your rhythm, your purpose and your song is your ultimate gift back to God- learning that you are not here by chance, but for a very special and unique role that only you were designed to play.Go on, and put your headphones on, block out the noise…the discouragement and distraction and keep on singing…keep on moving!

Kambua M.